"I am not okay

I'm barely gettin' by

I'm losing track of days

And losin' sleep at night"

Jellyroll

If there ever was a theme song that describes the life of a trauma survivor, this is it. I ha...

We have entered rainy season at the lake. Today is day six of rain and swarms of fish flies creating a loud buzz in the dark skies. It feels like a scene from a horror movie when walking out to the ga...

"Do or do not, there is no try."

Yoda

After much internal conflict I took a week off and dug myself a few garden trenches. I placed seed, fertilized lawns and sat outside just listening to the bi...

"Our ability to grow resilient in the face of adversity

spreads to others and helps them grow resilient as well"

I am in my garden today getting ready for the new season of tending, weeding and h...

"Trauma is prevalent in our world and its effects can ripple out, shaping our interactions and relationships at home and at work"

 We interrupt this peaceful slumber with an eye opening blast from...

OK where are all the people who, when triggered go right into anger mode? You are my people, unfortunately we share the inability to keep our lids closed when a trigger cuts deep into a trauma wound. ...

Life changes fast. Life changes in an instant.

You can sit down to dinner and life as you know it changes"

Joan Didion

This week I have been overly triggered. It started when I was working outside ...

"Who you were, who you are and who you will be are three different people"

Yesterday was cleaning closet day at Casa Anastasia with the goal of clearing out anything that was no longer of value in...

"Trauma comes back as a Reaction not a memory"

Bessel van der Kolk

A childhood filled with never knowing when the temperature was going to turn to rage - 200 blocks
Raised in a home lacking Empath...

"Stay with me,

Let's just breathe

Practiced on my sins, never gonna let you win, uh-huh

Under everything, just another human being, uh-huh

I don't want to hurt

There's so much in this world to ma...

"Fear is a mile wide and an inch deep"

Edgar Nye

 I grew up on the North side of Manning as the youngest of 4 girls. Our home, like many others in the 70's was dysfunctional, with lots of arguing, t...